Reclusive Shade
By: Jurri Saddler Jr.
18 June 2014

 

My walls are riddled with sighs

Laced with a past denied

The air dense with regret’s humidity

Errors and mistakes crawl over me

 

My thoughts fall into the repetitive

At the same time become competitive

Synapses fire hard like drums

As my heart ceases to hum

 

I don’t get how tragedy pervades

Like an unfeeling reclusive shade

Left on a world that’s eclipsed

Left within a faulty defense

 

In a proud attempt to transfigure

I slash a the reflections that linger

I can’t afford the flashbacks

I can’t relive the attack

 

Yet the memory sticks like webs

Backlash creeps in each thread

On nights like this it spiders

Tension in my chest is tighter

 

A deep breath hoping to dissipate

A build up of clouded hate

Toward figures supposed to protect

From that neighborly suspect

 

So I live in mobile haunt

In solitude I feel the taunts

But I find that I can feel secure

With every drink that I pour