Best Friend
By: Jurri Saddler Jr.
02 July 2014

The play of light caresses my face
The soft hues I wish to separate
If only to feel a single fuse
A subtle attempt to peruse
the landscape of a mind’s fault

A body full of hope defeats rigor
With the pull of the blinds, the light bigger
The lids of my eyes heat to rose
And with it the pursuit to expose
the broken mind has come to a halt

Senses now sway with ignorant cheer
The abandonment has become dimly clear
Which leaves falsely spaced-out room
And gives me a chance to exhume
the origins of strings pulled by him

At this I accept the inevitable swarm
Of your memory laced within a storm
That brewed within for the past decade
Ever since the age I tried to evade
feelings stitched deep within

I thought there would be an expiration
On a teenage friendship dipped in elation
But I feel your echo persevere
Sometimes found in the echo of a tear
on a face unwilling to forget

Friendship that blazed from mutual hate
The dislike of one another bordered the innate
Yet we eventually stumbled on a connection
The intensity of which offered protection
from a mind prone to fits

Easy conversations that flowed for weeks
Naive-laced adventures we sought to seek
On cool grass our eyes clung to the moon
Unaware that the moment would end soon
enough for it to slip by us

You spoke as if our friendship was fated
I was quick to counter we were dated
To which your face quickly colored with pain
The silence that followed made it hard to explain
that I didn’t know how to trust

Our end, in mind, began to germinate
The excuse rushed in over winter break
I was quick to slap you with blame
A move I admit brought shame
that still follows me in dreams

So as I let the light touch my eyes
Trying to shake the effect of our demise
I realize in others I’ve tried to duplicate
A best friend I cannot recreate
by defectively clutching at seams